The disciples did not understand any of this. Its meaning was hidden from them, and they did not know what he was talking about.
Luke 18:34 (NIV)
Lord Jesus, help me in my spiritual dullness. I must confess that sometimes the spiritual significance of the moment is over my head. I can see what You are doing in my midst, I can sometimes even see how it is in fulfillment of the Scriptures, but it will totally escape me the spiritual significance as it pertains to why me and why now. Why are You showing me? What are You expecting me to do differently? How is this to change my life and how I engage in Kingdom building? The dullness is real. And I don’t want to move in that space.
I pray for eyes that see, ears that hear and a heart that understands. I pray as I engage with the folks that come my way, navigate through the situations that arise, and am called upon to make decisions in the moment that You would guide and direct me, providing me the clarity that I need to move forward faithfully. Help me to make my heart truly attendant to Your will and Your way, cognizant of what You are doing in my midst, and how You are bringing about Your will in the world around me. Show me the role that You intend for me to play, great or small, and enable me to be faithful in carrying it out. Reveal to me what You would have me to know and how You would have me to respond.
I realize that sometimes this is part of Your master plan, as it was with the disciples. In those instances, when the time comes for You to reveal to me what Your hand was at work doing, please connect the dots for me as You did them, showing them how all the pieces fit together, and how You were working in me in spite of me. For it is in times like those that I revel in You most, amazed at how You accomplish Your will, and use the most unlikely characters. In short, Lord Jesus I just want to be used that I might glorify You in all that I say and do.
“I will bless the LORD at all times! His praise shall continually be on my mouth!” To Your glory! Amen.