I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I hope…
Psalm 130:5
Good morning Lord. What am I waiting for? That’s a good question. As I look at my life and circumstances I often couch my waiting in spiritual terms. “I am waiting for a calling,” or “I’m waiting for You to show me where You want me to serve,” or “I’m waiting on ‘confirmation.’” Yet, truth be told, You keep showing me. You keep directing me where You would have me. You keep opening up opportunities and making clear the path You want me to take. It’s me that is “waiting.” Whether it is fear of failure or uncertainty, there is this part of me that asks the question, “Did God really say?” Clouded is the path I ought to take, the way laden with self-constructed obstacles and landmines to deter me from going in the direction I sense You want me to go. Whether it is because of a fear of being vulnerable or a fear of being disqualified in my eyes or other’s eyes, I confess that I am often looking for some sign that tells me I’m moving in the right direction. Yet, my spirit knows this morning that in doing so I am walking by fear not by faith. And that does not please You. Lord, help me to make my spirit receptive and my heart obedient to Your guidance and direction today and everyday. Help me to walk boldly in the direction where I see You working, unafraid of how I am received or perceived. Give me the Holy Spirit inspired boldness to overcome spiritual procrastination. Though I realize there are some things You call me to wait on, service to You and others is not one of them. Today, enable me to pour my life out even as my Savior poured His out in love for others, that You might not just be glorified, but that You might also be pleased with me. In Jesus’s Name I pray.