“Why have you not eaten the sin offering in the place of the sanctuary, since it is a thing most holy and has been given to you that you may bear the iniquity of the congregation, to make atonement for them before the LORD? Behold, its blood was not brought into the inner part of the sanctuary. You certainly ought to have eaten it in the sanctuary, as I commanded.” And Aaron said to Moses, “Behold, today they have offered their sin offering and their burnt offering before the LORD, and yet such things as these have happened to me! If I had eaten the sin offering today, would the LORD have approved?” And when Moses heard that, he approved.
Leviticus 10:17-20
Jesus, how many times have I felt unworthy, not fit to be in Your presence let alone serve You? How many times have I looked at the circumstances of my life, the situations I have found myself in, and concluded that there was no way You could love me? How many times have I felt disqualified because of my past or what is going on inside of me? And as a result of these feelings of inadequacy I have loomed along the sidelines of life, not engaging fully as You have intended. Or worse, I have let opportunities to experience the wonders of living – new relationships, trying new things, branching out on new endeavors – pass me by, opportunities that You have intended for me to experience the fullness of living in You. All because of something that has happened to me or something that I have done that has caused me to say I don’t deserve it and that I am not worthy to be blessed by You. And what makes it worse is that there is always somebody willing to co-sign on these feelings, reinforcing their negativity, telling me that they agree that I am unworthy, unloved and disqualified!
Jesus, I am glad that You are looking over me and saying that You do not require me to be worthy. You only require that I grow in my love for You. What a load off my chest! You did what I could not do to purchase for me what I could not buy and earn a favor I could not achieve. All because You love me! You do not require perfection from me. You met that requirement! You do not require me to get it right all the time. You did that for me. These feelings I have are the leftovers of my old works righteousness mindset trying to pull me down. All of those voices outside of me and inside of me that say otherwise just don’t get it. You came that I might experience what true life is in You! Hallelujah!
So, I praise You today because You have made the unworthy worthy! You have taken me at my worst, stained with sin, and made me whole! Help me to walk in that boldness and confidence today, stepping out in faith, trying new things, pouring myself into new relationships, and believing that You will indeed bless my going out and my coming in, the works of my hands, and all I put my heart and mind to for Your Kingdom! Help me to turn off those voices that say that I will never measure up. You make me enough! Thank You!