Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah
Psalm 62:8 (ESV)
Father, this is an appropriate verse today, the foundation of my “resolution” for the upcoming year. The very thing that David is admonishing me to do is what I deeply desire and need to do beginning today: fully and completely trust You. That is not to say that I have not up until now. I have. But this year I want to take that trust to a radical level.
Father, I want to let go of the control that I feign to have and walk in complete and utter dependence upon You at all times and in all things. That means I must let go and let You. That will be difficult because there are situations where I either believe they are too insignificant to bother You with, or that I erroneously am ashamed and want to get myself out of. Yet, today Proverbs 3:5-6 rings in my spirit. You’ve got. I don’t. Please have at it.
I want to be totally transparent to You, sharing with You my deepest and darkest secrets without shame or pretense. That means being more vulnerable than I have ever been. I confess that I can sometimes “sugar coat” what I am feeling when I share with You what’s going on inside me. How foolish is that? Trying to hide what’s going on inside me because I don’t want to look some kind of way! Yet You already know and You are already tending to my dark places (Romans 8:26). My truest confession opens up and strengthens my feelings regarding my relationship with You; it takes it from “superficial” to “supreme”! By exposing my full heart to You I am exercising not only my faith but my full trust in You. And that is what a loving relationship looks like!
And finally Father I want to rush to You in all things at all times, whether in good times or not so good times, knowing that You have not promised to keep me from trouble but have instead assured me that You would keep me when I am in trouble. You are my safe place, my shelter, when life seems to be coming at me from all directions. Where You are there is peace (Isaiah 26:3). And it is that peace that I long for. I want to be able to sleep on the boat while the storms are raging like Jesus did! And this can only happen if I daily, moment by moment, seek refuge in Your shadow. That is my aim from now until my Savior’s return.
So Father, help me this year to these resolutions foundational to my walk with You. Be ever before me, reminding me to let go and let You, asking me what is really wrong with me, and ushering me to come closer to You. Then this year will be the greatest year of my life to Your glory. Do this for me in Jesus’ Name. Amen.