But Moses said to the LORD, “Behold, I am of uncircumcised lips. How will Pharaoh listen to me?”
Exodus 6:30
Father God, today I am reflecting upon all of the failures in my life, all the times I have set out to do something only to fall flat on my face. I have failed in relationships. I have failed in school. I have failed on the job. I have failed at church. My life sometimes feels like a ”flunk-fest”! I wish I could say there have not been a lot of them but I would be lying.
How many times have I ventured off to accomplish what You have called me to do only to meet resistance, or worse failure at the first stab? And when I take a step back and examine the aftermath, realize that I am not up for the task, that I am just not good enough, that the problem was me? I must admit, that I feel like Moses must have felt, as Pharaoh shook him off. Why should anyone listen to me or take me seriously?
I find peace in knowing that You see me and know what I am feeling in the moment. What I try to keep from prying, judgmental eyes You see because nothing is hidden from You (Hebrews 4:13). You see the insecurities I try to hide from everyone. You know how much of a failure I believe I truly am. And yet, You see me differently. You see me as You have created me to be. You see the finished product. Even as You told Moses that You have made him like God to Pharoah (Exodus 7:1), You beckon me not to see me as I see myself, but as You see me. And in doing this You remind me that it is not about me and what I can and cannot do. It is about trusting in You and Your plan for my life. You show me who You are making me into and invite me to participate in this sanctification process, purging me of all that gets in the way and transforming me into being more like Jesus.
So today, I embrace my brokenness, Father. I hold fast to the reality that in my weakness I am made strong in You (2 Corinthians 12:9-10). Show me how I indeed decrease that You might increase within me. Let Your strength be made clear and visible for all to see in what appears to be my failures. For then, and only then, shall I truly know what success looks like.