Jesus turned and saw them following and said to them, “What are you seeking?” And they said to him, “Rabbi” (which means Teacher), “where are you staying?” He said to them, “Come and you will see.”
John 1:38-39
Lord Jesus, as I hear you say to me, “What are you seeking“, My soul feels a little like those disciples. Not knowing how to answer you, I just come up with anything or the first thing that comes to my mind. Not sure of what I mean in the moment, knowing that I have your attention, I just blurt out and answer, “where are You staying?“ In that answer it so speaks to where my heart is. First, I don’t know what I need. To be honest with You I often think I need one thing and find that I need something else. My heart gravitates toward obtaining things that this world can supply. Then I realize that they truly cannot satisfy.
Yet, my soul rejoices this day knowing that even in my ?, You are still drawing me to You! Your Word reminds me that Your Spirit within me discerns what I truly need and makes intercession on my behalf. Hallelujah! That alone gives me the confidence to say whatever is on my heart, knowing that You will filter through it and see what I truly need.
But more so my soul rejoices because even when I don’t know what I need in the moment what I really need is just to be with You. Even when I cannot clearly articulate what is going on inside me if I just draw closer to You, I will get what I stand in the need of.
So today I rush to Your feet. Like Mary in Lazarus‘s home I choose to put all the other things that press for my attention to the side and sit at Your feet, learning of You and loving You. I pray that You would continue to remind me that I have, in doing so, chosen the better portion. Remind me that as long as I stay in fellowship with You all of my needs, all of my concerns, all of my fears, and all of my “other” will be taken care of. As I seek You first, I know that I know that I know You will supply all of my needs. I look to You this day. Draw me nearer, Precious Lord! Amen!