But God’s anger was kindled because he went, and the angel of the LORD took his stand in the way as his adversary.
Numbers 22:22
LORD, how many times have You told me one thing answering my question, and in my weak faith I came and asked You the same question a different way? How many times have I not been satisfied by the answer that You have provided, but instead pursued my own answers my own way, disregarding what You have said, finding some Biblical justification for moving forward in the way that seems right in my own eyes? Today, my soul ponders those instances, reminding myself that You are in control, that I am Your servant, called upon to carryout Your wishes in all circumstances. You don’t need to raise “a donkey” to remind me of the folly of doing things my way. Nor do You need to place a messenger in my path to stop me. Instead I pray that You would give me a sensitive heart that I might not only hear You, but also yield to Your wishes in all circumstances. Show me my spiritual waffling and waverings, how I am not accepting Your answers but instead looking for different angles to satisfy the external and internal pressures I feel. Remind me, LORD, that just because a path may seem on the surface to be the right one does not mean that it is the path You desire me to take. Give me the grace fortitude to resist those forces that pull me away from Your purposes and instead, help me to train my heart’s eyes on You, asking You to lead me in all circumstances that I might follow You this day and every day in Jesus’ Name. Amen.