Then Saul said to his armor-bearer, “Draw your sword and thrust me through with it, lest these uncircumcised come and mistreat me.” But his armor-bearer would not, for he feared greatly. Therefore Saul took his own sword and fell upon it.
1 Chronicles 10:4
Lord, how many times has someone asked me to assist them in doing something that, in the end, would trouble my soul? How many times have I been asked to compromise to support someone in what they were trying to do and I felt like it was the wrong thing to do? In some instances the requests make all the sense in the world to my mind. Yet, how many times have I been given sound rationale that, in reality, violates my convictions, the reasoning conveyed in order to persuade me to carry out some actions on behalf of someone else? Today, I ask for wisdom and spiritual courage to resist the temptation to “go along to get along.” I pray that You would help me to see through the emotional veil that I so often can hide behind, and to see plainly, with Christ redeemed eyes, what is really being asked of me, and understand the sacrifice I am being asked to make, and to fully grasp what YOU are calling me to do in the moment. Lord, I pray for the strength of character and conviction to not give in, but to instead stand my ground, willing to endure whatever comes my way in defense of doing things the right way, Your way, in the end. Help me, Lord, not to give in no matter what the cost to me, and to hold fast to what You are calling me to do in the moment. And, where I have failed – both in my past and in my present – grant me the forgiveness that only You can give, and help me to cope with the consequences that come as a result. All of this to Your glory in this most imperfect world. I pray this in Jesus’ Name.