Simon Peter said to them, “I am going fishing.” They said to him, “We will go with you.” They went out and got into the boat, but that night they caught nothing.
John 21:3 (ESV)
Lord Jesus, it is hard to be in that “in between” space, that place in my life where I am waiting to hear from You, see Your hand in my life, and place where I am moving full fledge into Your will, doing what I am supposed to be doing in the Kingdom. It is there, where I can quickly fall back into doing what I am used to doing, being lulled into thinking that this is where You want me to be. Like Peter, I say “I’m going fishing,” falling back into old habits and old ways of life that You called me from (Mark 1:17).
I admit that sometimes my past is the real reason why I get caught up in this mindset and can’t escape. Sometimes it is me not rising to the opportunity to let my light shine like Peter did in denying You three times. Other times it’s me backing down and cowering in the shadows like all the disciples did when You were being arrested. Or it could be in me believing that I am doing just what You told me to do like John, thinking, “I’m taking care of who You told me to take care of.” Yet, I know that calling is so much bigger than that, so much more encompassing, so much more life surrendering!
So today, I pray that You would give me the strength and the resolve to resist going back. My spirit can hear Your voice asking me, “Do you love me?” I hear Your challenge to me regarding what is to come. And what I know is that going back is not an option. Being concerned about what is happening in the lives of others is none of my business. My only focus is on following You.
Therefore, lead me and I shall follow. Help me to put the past behind me. Today, my soul purposely rests at Your feet, supping from the table You have laid out for me, waiting with patience on what You desire for me to do this day. Use me as You see fit to Your glory. Amen.