But who can discern their own errors? Forgive my hidden faults. Keep your servant also from willful sins; may they not rule over me. Then I will be blameless, innocent of great transgression.
Psalm 19:12-13 (NIV)
Lord Jesus, this morning there is a divine tension in my soul. On one hand my soul is so very aware and conscious of my sin, the brokenness that I walk around with everyday. Like a bunion on one foot, though often hidden from the world by being concealed by a shoe, its effect is felt with every step. Though no one often sees it, it is there, always with me, reminding me that I am not yet whole.
On the other hand is the foot that has been repaired by the Master Podiatrist, its bunion and other impediments removed, relieved of the discomfort and made whole. Every step is new, bringing with it a moment by moment reminder of Your transforming power. Wholeness and healing on one side. Brokenness and reliance on the other. Already but not yet.
And in my mind’s eye I can clearly see why You don’t completely heal and deliver me in one fail swoop: it is through the struggle and the journey that I come to love and worship You more! You have infused within my soul this deep craving, longing, for Your righteousness. The “healed foot” is not enough; I long for more, much more! And not just perfection for the sake of perfection. No. It is a longing to please You, put a smile on Your face, to hear those words, “Well done!”
So Lord, today I ask You to open my eyes to my faults and my failings. Show me all of my deep, dark, hidden faults. Help me to truly discern my errors. Sear my conscious when I blatantly sin against You. Loosen the grip that sin can have on my being. And continue to heal that “broken foot” that I might walk before You, my life a testimony to Your healing and sustaining power. In Your glorious Name I pray. Amen.